Random thoughts

So, feeling a tad sad these days, why? OK, think what you want about Michael Jackson, but he was part of the music of my life and most of my marriage. So once again my history has taken another hit with his passing. I guess that's what happens as we get older, but geez I'm not THAT old.

I can remember Robert and I waiting and anticipating every video event MJ put out, that's part of my history with MTV. And by the way, why don't they show videos on MTV anymore?? I remember Robert and I sitting there watching the Motown 25th anniversary and being mesmerized and blow away by the Moonwalk. Most every moment in MJ's career was shared with Robert....except his passing was shared with no one. How sad.....and how sad that things like this just jerk me back to the loss. You just never get past it...........

A conversation with my mom

So on Easter my mom looks at my hands and sees rings on both hands and says "that is an interesting ring on you finger "(left hand). I say yah, it's an open weave pattern she says "you know you really shouldn't wear a ring on that finger because men will think you are married and won't approach you". To which I said, what men? AND for your information I like my life just as it is.. I answer to no one and since I always lived to please either you or Robert, I'm having a great time...thank you very much. She replied with a hump, whatever. She really doesn't get it.

Why?

I was just at the grocery store and when leaving I saw an elderly couple, probably late 80's, holding hands while entering the store. My first thought was "I will never know what it's like to be old and hold hands with Robert"...then, I remembered that Robert and I never held hands because he didn't like to. Then, I realized that after almost 6 years I still fall victim to romanticizing the memories of what has been lost.

So, that's why this blog has come about...